Friday, June 30, 2006; 8:35 AM;
argh. is it so sickening to look at me talk on e phone ? this is so stupid. i dont wanna exceed my sms limit so i stopped sms-chatting with him alr. we talk on e phone. &now, you adults are stopping us. what e hell is e problem ? it is so not your problem. i mean, stop it man. why cant we talk on e phone ? &please, dont tell me to go find another guy &leave your son alone. because i will not.anyway we 're going to SYF OC tmr. so at least i'll have abit of fun. im in a stupid mood now. i dont wanna be rude ; so you shld respect us teens as well. i know what im doing. sucks. why cant i just talk to him ? is it so damn hard, you insensitve, unfeeling &i-do-this-for-your-own-good grownups. wtvr man. stop screaming for us to stop talking lo. okok nvm. i must simmer down. /:ps : i've been eating alot.
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Wednesday, June 28, 2006; 10:25 PM;
hello. ;D we finally got over &done with class tee. PHEW. so happy cause quite a few ppl went there hahaha. yay watch &see ! our class tee is hot xD ok anyway i cut my hair ! haha then now its shorter &thinner ;D;Doh &i didnt eat for 12 hours continuously hohoho. which is insane.byebye.
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Tuesday, June 27, 2006; 6:20 AM;
oh. today took height &weight /: i think its dreaded by most girls la. hmm i hate to be fat &short, like a teapot. rah anyway i must be lighter than my mummy. because she's freaking 44kg okay. hmm that skinny ass shld grow fatter so I CAN BE FATTER ;D ah anyway there was trng today.was alright i guess, cause pandian didnt want us to fall unconscious when trng. hahaha that lameshit. hmm but at least he's trying to be nicer, after he had been to e coaches' course. lol.btw e workout was a 30min run. i mean RUN ppl. &10 x 100m. ARGH ! i didnt complete e 10sets of 100m cause im too weak. aiya so sian. but frankly, im quite glad at least i managed to keep up with leena during e 30min run. oh KEXIN ! we all miss you. esp me ! cause your shoebag's with me ! ;D get well soon you runner. pandian misses you too ;D hmm take care awesome (:last thing : most of e sch food suck. ): rah &ppl, i really really wanna help you guys buy your food when im in e queue okay. but most of e time i forget your orders. im so sorry. i'll try to help next time. ): my brain is retarded.
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Monday, June 26, 2006; 4:57 AM;
i get very turned off when ppl copy me. lol i talk like im damn popular. well not exactly, but i hate it when ppl copy me. rah. okay its not like i didnt copy adidas, but hey, stop copying me ! RAH ! &if you copied me then just say you copied la, dont try to pretend as if you guys came up with it. i mean like, eww. okay forget it. this is stupid.___________anyway sch was fine. (: at least wasnt angry la. haha wayne wong's always damn funny. i dont know why, he cracks me up quite abit. ;D i like being back in sch. 2k<3s.>now. but btw i feel damn poor now. im broke so im angry when i go out rah. erm &i love walking arnd yewtee with bob e builder ! (X hahaha JE meesiam is so satisfying. oh those i always hang out with : we must go out tgt alright ! ohya one more thing. register no. 17-32 forms a 2nd line during assembly. &im somewhere at e front. that sucks because there're so many tchers at e front. but it rocks cause soon i'll be able to keep talking to aixin ! ;D I LOVE AIXIN (: OI AIXIN I MISS YOU !!!!!! look at this you bimbo.okay byebye. tmr there's trng.
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Sunday, June 25, 2006; 5:40 AM;
hey there RVians.
hmm tmr's start of term 3. phew.
lets welcome it by waking up at bloody 5plus just to take buses &trains to get to NEW RV. that is good news, aye ?anyway i just wanna remind everyone who's sian about sch reopening : YOU HAVE YOUR FRIENDS (: just like i have mine ;D i love 2k man. wheeweet !ohwell but e new classroom is quite big so we're further away from each other. but 2i's still within sight from inside of 2k ! ;D if you get what i mean. hmm actually im quite happy sch's finally reopening. i mean, frankly, i'd rather go to sch everyday ¬ have so much hw thrown to me at a go. y'know, its like im too lazy to do hw when i have e whole month to myself. its like, i wont do it man. no way.okay wtvr it is, i hope you guys will be happy about sch reopening because you can see your friends &at least do hw la right. ;D oh my good friends are kinda troubled about stuff. you know which kind aye ? hmm if you know im talking about you, then i give you my blessings (: please dont be down. if you wanna be sad, then go be sad &come back a happy person. dont dwell in depression, please. i'll die with you guys. anyway if you guys wanna share your troubles then im always here la okay. <3
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Saturday, June 24, 2006; 12:50 AM;
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Your 10 FavouritesFavourite colours: anything that pleases meFavourite foods: hokkien mee &charsiew bao !Favourite songs: i like almost every songFavourite movies: in her shoes &she's the manFavourite sports: i like to watch soccer but i like running long dist.Favourite seasons: spring Favourite day of the week: i like everyday. weekdays can go sch &weekends can rest plus go church (:Favourite book: dont have leh. i dont like to readFavourite anime/cartoon: PPG !Your 9 CurrentsCurrent mood: at easeCurrent clothes: NB black tee &black fbts Current desktop screensaver: my big bro's class picCurrent time: 1530hrsCurrent annoyance: im feeling bloatedCurrent boy/girlfriend: hmm ?Current book you are reading: noneYour 8 FirstsFirst best friend: peiwenFirst crush: hmm ?First movie: i forgotFirst step on earth: 11031992First kiss: naw i havent kissedFirst music: i dont know !First handphone: when i was p4 i rmb my dad gave me a siemens phone. lol i used to love it.Your 7 lastsLast cigarette : hullo ?Last drink : plain waterLast car ride: last night when i came back from a rock concertLast crush : hmm ?Last movie seen : she's the manLast phone call : 3.24pm. wee told me she was downstairs lolLast CD played : aiyo forgotYour 6 Have Your EversHave you ever dated one of your best friends: i guess not. he didnt use to be my bestfriendHave you ever broken the law: ohyes. i do that like, everyday. I JAYWALK ! ;DHave you ever been arrested: nah im too cuteHave you ever skinny-dipped: yeahHave you ever been on TV: i guess notHave you ever kissed someone you don't know: omg no wayYour 5 Things Worn On Youtop, fbts, underwear &nth elseYour 4 Things Done Todaymakan, talk on e phone, went out with awesome3 &sing !Your 2 Things You Cant Live Without: food &bedYour 1 Thing You Would Do When You're Bored: sleep5 ppl to do this quiz:nah.
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Thursday, June 22, 2006; 5:04 AM;
HELLO IM FEELING HIGH (: (:
YTD WAS KEESIAO BBQ !! hahahahahhaha so happy (: i saw my beloved ppl yay.
oh but unhappy things did happen. such as e bloody bitch - i mean it, literally - &phyllis being sad ):
i mean, of course its not phyllis' fault to be sad. lol just listing e sad things ):
BUT e dog who came to lick at our food was freaking sickening la. wahpiang lo pissed me off like shit. rah !
besides e bad things, e good things made me very happy (: yay. catching ! haha yesyes, catching - e game you play when you were in pri sch. ;D so fun but my soles did hurt abit after it la cause e ground was hot &everyone was fast (X ohman i love my class like siao.
haha anyway e actual bbq-ing was mostly done by e guys, which was quite a surprise (X e girls were like towkays in e aircon-ed function room while e guys stood sweating, cooking stuff for e towkay neos. ;D;D damn cool leh. but of course, i wasnt one of e slacking ones. haha e guys were so motherly teehee.
ps : kristie went crazy over games on tongjing's gameboy &my phone ! xD
okay pictures ! [btw my cam was outta batt so i had to use my phone /: ]






zhiyong dies after twister xD





wheeweet !


THE WEIRDEST COMBINATION ! ;D runfeng kristie jazz

TOWKAY NEOS !

OOO CHICKEN WINGS !
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anyway today's trng was bad. everyone running e same sets as me was off form ): i think pandian's quite sad, yet helpless. aiya wtvr la. we were supposed to run 10rounds -4km- today but he told us to stop when we finished e 9th ): what does that mean huh ? D:
rah plus e track juniors really suck can. wth man they dismissed themselves lo. then they're forever slacking their asses off. they cut down on every single thing y'know. im not kidding man, everything. from warmup to hurdle stretch to jumping power to drills to main sets. WAH I TAKE MY HAT OFF YOU. losers.
&pandian is bloody biased.
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yay tmr got sch ;D;D
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006; 7:02 AM;
man i suck y'know. i really do.
i only ran 2third of e sets for today's trng. D: i wanna cry my eyes out lo why do i suck so much. i hate myself. i suck so much man. D: D: D: ): ): ): WAHPIANG I SUCK. ):
its like i cant bloodyhell run lo. i mean, i suck at intervals. at first i thought it was because he expects too much so i wasnt very affected by e lousy timings.
has e realisation come too late or what ?
now i know im just too slow, too fucking slow to survive those sets. ppl can do their last sets in 90sec but what about me ? i cant even do e 9th set. i fucking stopped at e 6th. really it sucks. i mean why am i so slow ? how am i gonna represent e sch &run ? i suck.
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Sunday, June 18, 2006; 8:06 PM;
my dad can like bugger off. i stopped smsing cause i know i'll exceed my sms limit. so now i talk on e phone. why is he still so pissed off ? i mean, firstly i was using e house phone so its free &he doesnt have to care about $$. secondly its my own problem whether i choose to talk or sleep, not his. just go away la. sucks lo, butting his head into my business. ugh so stupid.ok i admit im having slight headaches la, due to radiation. but its my problem so he can leave me be okay. i hate this la. regardless i talk or sms, he'll find sth to argue with me about. let me tell you thats damn stupid &i dont f-ing care.
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HEY WORLD. (: stop swearing please.anyway happy father's day to all e fathers who're reading haha. actually if you're a dad i dont think you'll surf blogs la. i mean, are you trying to intrude your child's privacy or sth ? ok nvm. digress. oh i was feeling damn xin fu just now when i ate a piece of oreo cheesecake. ;D it was heavenly la mmmmm. i told my NS cousin that &he said : if you cant shit for a week &when you see a toiletbowl, thats true xin fu. LOLk lame. ohya thanks claire for reminding me. RVians, we have exactly 1 more week to finish pia-ing our work (: GOOD LUCK EVERYONE. actually i shld take back my words cause i need luck. shucks this is what i detest about holidays. ): hmm but in 3-4days we have KEESIAOS BBQ yay so happy (: (: we'll have a hell lot of fun teehee.oh my cousins are back from australia ;D
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Saturday, June 17, 2006; 12:13 PM;
(: (:
你在想什么?
我在想你。
aww so sweet !
here are e lyrics ;D
冰块还没融化
你在看表 我笑的尴尬
你说最近很忙 改天聊吧
那天我在楼下想了很久 想你说的话
你说爱情很窄 世界很大 (而我们应该长大)
就这样吧 就这样吧
我想我听懂你话中的话
而我知道那真爱不一定能白头到老
而我知道有一天你可能就这么走掉
而我知道我知道这一切我全都知道
我就是受不了
而我知道我们曾天真的一起哭和笑
而我知道放开手但不知道怎么忘掉
而我知道你走了以后的每一分一秒
却还是这么难熬
微笑 紧紧咬牙给你祝福 你自由飞吧
你说温室没有灿烂的花 (你总是很有想法)
就这样吧 就这样吧
我同意可是我泪如雨下
MAYDAY ROCKS OKAY ;D
我知道你喜欢我。我要告诉你我也喜欢你。只是我们都还太年轻了。也许,长大以后,我会嫁给你。
在我心里,你是温柔而疯狂的。
ps : HAPPY BDAY LEEEEEE ! ;Dedit; crap. i always cant upload videos. sucks ):
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Friday, June 16, 2006; 7:15 AM;
oh im tagged by lixin aka leeeeeeeeeeeeee.7 things that make you smile1. weird expressions2. sweet stuff he says to me (X3. when taking neos !4. enough sleep5. good food ;D6. hot stuff i see when im shopping7. hahaha.7 things to do to win my heart
1. huh 2.basically3. i 4. just 5. have 6. to 7. like 8. him (:7 things that I believe 1. my almighty Lord God (:2. happy-go-luck-ing3. love-based relationships last longer than physical-based ones4. my bladder isnt in good condition xD5. there're ppl out there who pretend to be nice to me but actually detest me6. ppl do weird things not because they're weird but they want attention7. runfeng's jokes are funny haha7 things that I'm afraid of1. rejection2. constipation3. mensus4. lim woon foong5. becoming fat6. acne !7. wasps /bees /hornets /butterflies
7 things I do everyday
1. gossip2. smile /laugh3. love 4. makan 5. sleeeeeeeep !6. brush teeth7. pout7 people I want to see now
1. ahhh ! gay. more like i wanna pinch ;D2. mike he3. wang lee hom4. mayday5. whole of 2k6. coach mrlee7. yang gui fei - i heard she's fat ;D7 people I want to do this trivia1. tongjing2. wee3. no more haha
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"excuse me we're raising funds for e sch pocket money fund. would you like to donate some money to this organisation ? it helps e poorer kids in pri &sec schs to pay for their canteen food (: thank you so much !" -i repeated this line for like how many times ?! phew.
hello ! ;D
hmm back from town.
NEWBALANCE sale !
CITYHALL. CIP : assign locations
ORCHARD. CIP : sell teddies + raise funds for sch pocket money fund
BUGIS : makan + arcade + neos !
anyway from e this class-initiated CIP activity, i learnt that caucasians are not as nice as we thought they were /: [lol i really hope i wont offend anyone]
before we started asking for donations, we decided we shld look out for "angmohs" cause e tendency of them donating was supposedly higher than e others. HMMM. it didnt turn out to be so- sadly. /:
&singaporeans were mainly kind ppl. i mean, only less than 60% of ppl i asked donated, but those who didnt wanna donate at least nodded &smiled. what turned me off was e bad attitude e minority gave me. if you dont bloodyhell wanna donate then at least wave a lil right. you dont just ignore me &continue talking to your friend. like wtf ? if you're s'porean &you do this, i am so ashamed of you as my fellow citizen. RAH.
oh anyway e guys were quite shi bai la. ;D;D tongjing &i sold all 8 teddies &8 notepads before 3.40pm. e guys were still struggling to give away their 13 teddies after 3.40pm. hahaha. ok dont be so mean la huh. (: thats actually not their fault la right ? cause tongjing &i are adorable lil girls &e whole of orchard loves us teehee.
after CIP we wenta bugis to makan ! cause some girls eg. dengyin, tongjing, bei &i were freaking hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. i was gonna faint alr lo. haha then had fried rice yumyum. oh anyway bei eats a hell lotta stuff i warn tell you. she is a huge eater. like omg. she had fried rice, cha kuay teow &desserts for lunch. plus she was still thinking of icecream. ohman i cannot believe that xD lol
afterwards we went arcading lo. then took neos (: hahaha anyway we did a very bhb thing. ;D we had one strip of extra neos but it only had 4 so we cldnt give to everyone equally. &guess what ?
WE PASTED IT ON E BOARD WHERE BHB PPL PASTE THEIR NEOS ! OMG.
try to find us hahaha. ;D
oh happy bday to leeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen (:
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Thursday, June 15, 2006; 8:10 PM;
hoho im home (:just now had trng at gombak as usual &pandian wasnt in a very good mood la. kept complaining about our form esp when doing jumping power. lol that menopausing ass. hmm today ran 3.6km for e main set, instead of e usual 3.2 /: quite shitty la cause some were off-from. &he didnt tell us our timings wth. he keeps acting as if he's retarded. when mish told him she was gonna read out e absentees, he'll keep shouting out their names as if they were present. ok i dont know if you get me, but nvm. ;Dhmm. after trng we bought stuff to drink &eat &hung arnd at e taxi stand ;D took pics ! ok im gonna upload only one taken by kexin. others were taken by me &they sucked ;D haha i almost pissed them off.then on our way home, wee &i relived e old times when we wld sit at e busstop &talk about a hell lot of stuff. kept bitching. ps : ohya so sad man i must stop smsing alr otherwise i'll surely exceed my sms limit. argh.saw gay when wee &i were walking ! ;D i was telling wee we wld most probably see him. haha and we did ! ;D so cool. lol
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006; 12:50 PM;
lol i came to blogger. then i forgot what i wanted to tell you guys ;D
nvm i've got a blog for you ppl (:
wewankoh and i found out from my bro's friend. brazil vs croatia 1-nil. sucks lo. i mean, it was victory but i thought it wld be some remarkably funny scores like 5-nil or sth. haha.ok was pretty mean.ohman. imagine you're a player of croatia and ppl are anticipating for e fall of you. ohman, thats bad. ): ok crap. ohya ! sth else ! ;D 2k : read this. 16th june; 12.55pm; city hall mrt control station; sell teddies !; teddies are $3 each (: (:yay ppl come find us. we'll be arnd cityhall area. i think. ;D byebye.
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LOL last night my lil bro was telling me sweecheng has a siao face. he meant his face gave others e impression that he's insane xD omg i laughed my ass off haha.anyway i commented that a black's hairstyle is damn cool when i was watching e togo match. then my big bro told me they had to do this so ppl can differentiate. lol ! ok im not a racist, just sharing funny stuff with you ;Doh btw i tried rather hard to wake up &catch e brazil vs croatia match but to no avail xD i heard my 'caocao' alarm, turned it off then went back to sleep haha. shit, now i have no idea whats e score. shld be ownage by brazil la. but to update you, korea vs togo was 2-1 (: YAY KOREA ! haha i think dachangjin fans are quite happy. france vs switzerland was nil-nil. not surprising la actually, cause neither is extremely good or extremely bad.haha soccer craze ;Done more thing. i read this from a book i saw at pop on sunday. "Are the stars out tonight ? I dont know if it's cloudy or bright cause i only have eyes for you, dear." -Al Dubinlol so umm, kua zhang. but guys you can try it on your gfs la huh. (X [tell me if it works ;D]
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Tuesday, June 13, 2006; 5:52 AM;
hoho today was happy (: (:*waves to gay ! ;Dlol trng was umm, okay i guess. i didnt do very well for e sets but yea. i mean, i ran to my ability la.first set was disappointing la. other sec2 girls were running below 75sec &i did an 80. i mean, how worse can it get. i shed tears mainly because of cca la. so i did so after e first set. quite sad la. i mean, im still this slow after so many track sessions. ): boo. 2nd set was just a lil better. umm, 79sec. yeah laugh if you feel like it.went home with weewee. LMAO called gay from e mrt station &kept waving ! omg lo was so crazily fun ;D;D;D kept waving &laughing like a mad chicken hahahahohoho.so fun man i shall do it whenever er, i feel so. (:happyhappy.___________
oh i decided to do this thang i saw on a senior's blog since im bored haha. bhb la wtvr.1) What is your phone brand? SE2) What are the last 3 digits of your mobile number? 2653) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say? "U know why chickens dedicate korea as their home country ?"4) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M? Mail Deposit [haha]5) Who's the last person you rang? dexter6) Who was your last missed call from? aww i have no caller id7) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D? Dengyin Hm8) What does the last message in your inbox say? "Yah. Lol. Not because you weak meh ! Sure bo. xD"9)Who comes up under J? janice lim. janice tan. janice tay. janice 1j. jean. jeepoh hm. jemi. jemi hm. jesslyn yap. jesslyn yap hm. jingjie. jing xiang. jing yi hm. jiong hm. joel hm. jonathan ong. jun hao. jun jie. jun jie hm. jun xiang. jun xiang hm. [omg]10) Go to your Sent Items - what does the 10th message say? "yup haha but havent board gombak train yet :D you must eat k."11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S? shanice hm12) How many messages are currently in your inbox? lol i dont know13) What do you have as your wallpaper? me (:14) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R? rui jie15) Who do you have on speed dial 3? i dont use speed dials.16) Who's the first person who comes up under C? chan theng choo [omg]17) How many bars of signal do you currently have? full
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Sunday, June 11, 2006; 11:12 AM;
haha i wanna be slim &hot like jolin ! ;D
&btw rmb to watch DEVIL BESIDE YOU ok. haha before holidays end. you wont regret it, really.
haha anyway fyi im
JAZZ + 10 }
lol y'know adidas has this aye ? its ____ + 10 }
insert your beautiful name &become one of e 11 hotties kicking e ball ! ;D
wahpiang stupid fantasy. haha.
oh one more thing. if you watch supersports often enough you'll hear e NAME GAME SONG right ? ;D i checked out e lyrics. its damn cute la haha.
lets use my name as an example since it can be used on any name (:
here goes :
the name game ; jasmine !
jasmine jasmine bo basmine
bonana fanna fo fasmine,
fee fy mo masmine,
JASMINE !
lol so fun. (X
edit/ wahlau lo blogger sucks man, i wanna put a jolin music video but they rejected wth. ):
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Saturday, June 10, 2006; 11:56 PM;
hello !ytd went town with shuying, kexin, huishan, claire, jj &weekiat. (: wenta watch SHE'S THE MAN ! haha soccer fever's overwhelming e whole wide world. hmm was damn cool ;D amanda bynes was hot la, then e storyline was pretty good as well (:yay had lunch at pastamania before going to catch e flick.today was fine ;Dat least i went out. yeah haha.morn had trng at gombak as usual. [600m + 300m] x 2 /:screamed our asses off because of e furry crawlers that infested gombak stadium LOL.went je. had lunch at LJS, went home, slacked, bathed, went to zilie's ! ;D HAHAHAPPY BDAY TO YOU ZILIE ! (:mel &zilie are here at my house ! watch world cup (: (: ENGLAND vs PARAGUAY1 nil yay.ok i have some pics. but not now. /: zilie's meddling with my phone now. oh &i have a hell lot of ppl here. haha ok not a HELL lot la. hmm. bigbig bro, smallsmall bro, cousin, 3 of bigbig bro's friends, mel &lie ! ;D so 're nao'.
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Thursday, June 08, 2006; 6:11 AM;
today had trng. argh, was bad. my hip hurt quite abit during e workout. &knees too. aiya what a stupid day.anyway im like quite happy, cause i've got a very umm, open-minded mummy (:last night i told her about my problem regarding BGR. then she knew everything lo omg. lol then i was damn shocked. ;D she guessed e guy &commented that he was short &thin. hahaha. but i was so freaked out by e fact that she actually knows who i like. LMAO. k another thing. haha after e sets &all, shuying &i saw weekiat sit at e back of gombak grandstand, reading a book. LOL i thought he was damn random. haha then shuying &i discussed what he'd do when he's having sex. lol i suggested halfway thru he'll eat laksa LOL. ok la lame. eh weekiat if you happen to see this, no offence hor. hmm lately i've been hooked on DEVIL BESIDE YOU ! haha it rocks alot lo. mike he is damn shuai can. rainie &him make a perfect pair (: (: HAHAHA I LOVE DEVIL BESIDE YOU ! ;D
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Wednesday, June 07, 2006; 4:30 PM;
hello. hmm. dexter &swee are going off to m'sia. umm, hiking. 4days. yeah, hike for 4days. i dont know wth that means la lol.anyway umm. im pretty lifeless. i dont go out. &if i do, its either trng or mugging. lol sucks right. aiya wtvr la sian leh. ): and now i dont even do work wth man. i just keep on reading animal farm /xi you ji. yes, XI YOU JI. e one with umm, sunwukong &erlangshen in it. lol lameshit la. and we're supposed to write a summary on it. like omg, give us some sensible work to do. aiya im talking cock. wth. aiya so bored. there's trng tmr. /: so sian i got nth to blog about. my life is umm, mundane. oh nvm.
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006; 7:04 AM;
hmm. i really thank God for you. (:anyway gathering at my house was fun la ;D we watched i not stupid 2 then guys went downstairs to play soccer &girls stayed at my house to play truth-or-dare. haha. we kept going downstairs to harass e guys. huiyee thinks dexter is sexiest in white underwear ! i think otherwise (X and shanice thinks pink underwear suits zhiyong e most LMAO ! ;D funny answers hahaha. but aww, lihui was like so scared to answer our questions, for fear we'd blog about it. ;D hello lihui im blogging it now ! but not about you so no worries (:haha after that they went home lo. &i had dinner, went online &cried my ass off. hmm, im alright now la. just got extremely emotional cause of some er, complicated stuff. i really really am grateful to God la, to have met you &all. hallelujah (: you're like so nice la, dont be so nice please lol. thank you so much too, for everything (: but now i have to make sure cause i know i shld not &cannot just do wtvr i want at e expense of your love. thanks for undstding &for everythinggggggg ! ;D THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU !!! (: (: YOU SWEET GAY ! haha
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Monday, June 05, 2006; 7:00 AM;
IM SO UNWORTHY OF YOU. I FEEL LIKE SHIT. WHY ARE YOU SO NICE TO ME. IM SUCH A BITCH. IM SO STUPID I'VE GOT NO BRAINS. WTF I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW I FEEL. THIS SUCKS ALOT. IM SO SORRY. IM TOO FREAKING STUPID TO REALISE THAT ALL I THOUGHT I DID, I DIDNT. I THOUGHT I WANTED TO BE YOUR GIRLFRIEND. I THOUGHT IT'LL TURN OUT GOOD SINCE WE LIKED EACH OTHER. BUT I DIDNT REALISE WHAT WAS GOING ON IN ME. I DIDNT STOP MYSELF FROM CHANGING MY MIND AGAIN &AGAIN. I FEEL LIKE A BITCH IM SO MEAN TO YOU. SORRY SORRY SORRY. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU. WE WERE STUCK IN E MIDDLE OF NOWHERE &I DIDNT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. I THOUGHT IT WAS TEMPORARY BUT IT SHOOK ME MORE &MORE DEEP INSIDE. I WAS AFRAID. &NOW I KNOW ITS POINTLESS TO BE CRYING LIKE SOME LUNATIC IN FRONT OF E BLOODY COM. I KNOW NO AMOUNT OF TEARS CAN ERASE THIS HORRIBLE DEED I'VE DONE TO YOU. I DONT WANT YOU TO ENDURE E PAIN I DID E OTHER TIME. ITS ALL MY FAULT. WHY DIDNT I MAKE SURE. IM SO SORRY. YOU'RE STILL SO NICE TO ME. YOU DESERVE BETTER, SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME, A FICKLE-MINDED PIECE OF CRAP. SORRY MY DEAR.
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Sunday, June 04, 2006; 8:26 PM;
what if i feel its not you ? what if i was unsure, but i said yes ? what if its me who's gonna ruin e relationship this time ? what if i only want to be your friend ? what if things just dont feel right for me ? what if ? ): dont hate me please.
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Saturday, June 03, 2006; 8:22 PM;
hoho im excited about tmr ! ;D KEESIAOS UNITE AT MY HOUSE ! haha but till now only like, 7ppl said they're coming. LOL so umm if you're a keesiao &you see this &you havent told me, please sms me k. thanks (:and. if umm you're sad /depressed at this moment. i want you to cheer up. seems like ppl arnd me &whom i love are down. dont be ok. yknow i want all of you ppl out there to be happy (: (: PLEASE ?ok crap. bye
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Friday, June 02, 2006; 5:43 AM;
haha this week was fattening. ;D
first had like a hell lot of rice dumplings /ba zang cause of duan wu jie.
then had gigantic icecream oreo at kexin's place.

then had cake before proper dinner last evening.
&this noon i had mac. hahaha.
im gonna eat icecream later. (: (:
haha &if i turn into a big fat swine, all of you must still be my friends ok ! ;D or else i eat all of you up hoho. so dumb.
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Thursday, June 01, 2006; 9:30 PM;
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